Sorrow of the Flag
Journal Brief
YEAR: 2016
START DATE: Dec. 17, 2016
END DATE: April 24, 2017
OH boy. Emotion and lots of it. Joy of Piece 24 dedication on a very cold December day. Many photos from that day. Beautiful roses from the beautiful Piece 24 team. I loved that team. The Trump election results. So much anger. The future opening up to a cruel, misogynistic imposter. Memories of Christmas past. Searching out the meaning of Christmas. Many pages of found images of posters and cartoons about Donald Trump. Photos from the women’s march In Dallas in January of 2017. On musical linguistics. By trying to kill the human spirit, the revenge of the spirit is beauty. Interjections of sacred passages and Jesus prayer - my mantram. A young artist’s suicide attempt. 1.18.17. Pages of prayers. Major blow of funder withdrawing funding. Changes everything for 29 Pieces. Endless pep talks with myself about finding motivation to stay in it. Making up a new name. Klabyce Breknee. Endless back and forth about: the joy and fulfillment, then gut punch, then wounded, then recovery, then in it again. It makes it hard to plan. And mandatory to roll with the punches. February 2017 - travel to San Miguel, Mexico. Death rehearsal in two very good Mexican hospitals - detailed in its own journal. In March - growing clarity and extraction from 29 Pieces as I thought I needed it to be and evolution into an organization that works. Happy - blissful even - for a while in these realizations. I’ve come home. Literally. The organization is moving to my home. Home and feeling contented at times. The reorganization and stripping down of 29 Pieces operations. Meditation/writing on That Wondrous Star. About stars. “Where does the vicious law of nature end and the cold cruel gaze of evil begin? It’s the line between necessity and pleasure.” Purple inspired (Prince inspired) collages of paintings of women. Years of duty and calling. I’ve “come home.” The “returning to myself”. Photos of the Piece 24 team for a AARP magazine story. Flame the cat’s illness. Kelly and third nerve palsy. Many images of insulting cartoons of Donald Trump. Final endpaper - a quote from Roy Bedichek - Texas naturalist.
Dedication of Piece 24 sculpture. Donald Trump election win and Hillary Clinton loss. A roller coaster of fulfillment, shock, anger, betrayal, hurt, worry. An artist’s suicide attempt. Reaching the ‘other shore.’ 29 Pieces offices move out of the big office and we begin to work virtually - ahead of the times, as it turned out.
Early days of lockdown in the pandemic. My dealing with age. Needing quiet in the midst of so much noise and tragedy of current events.
Dedication of Piece 24, planning on riding momentum to build possibly three more sculptural pieces. Developing three new lessons for Artists Making a Kinder World: Souls Hidden, Curiosity, Forgiveness.