Come Home

FEB. 11, 2017

What do I desire? To see what happens. Quiet Time in my studio Relationships. Sustenance. beauty in the world. Peace Justice, equity for all Animals around me.

What do I desire? Illumination Serving others A light heart Love in My Life.

What stands in my way?

The obligations and promises made in 29 pieces. Enough money to make it work. Feeling of duty. Feeling of God given calling.

What stands in my way?

Fear

    -embarrassment
    -denying God's wish for me.
    -what if pulling out is a mistake?
    -what if nothing as meaningful comes?

I fear I’m being rude—There’s more to report than I have energy for; my alone time.
    Journal writing.
    The questions of the charts.
    The disappointing butterfly trip.
    The epiphany at the butterfly sanctuary.
    [Arrow] I can dwell on all those things I can no longer do—walking very far, have the stamina for extensive projects, travel energetically. or,
    I can enjoy those things I can do,
    Look at the sky & space.
    Appreciate clouds. Write in this journal. Draw. Meditate. Love.

[Text on the side]: Farewell! off to find sights & sounds that I love.

My lessons from this trip:

    Mexico is beautiful! I wish I did better while there.

    I wanted to see the butterflies, but my health prevented it. I ended up staring at the clear blue sky, lying on my back.

What is it like to feel defeated

AT The Intersection of:

AGE, Diminishing, can anything good come from this?

BIG DIFFICULTY.

STRENGTH, ENERGY.

Is there a voice from the divine...from intuition...from the Lord of both worlds...speaking to me? If so, what is said?

I am being called to the studio. 

Come home 

You’ve reached the other shore.

Rest

What? Disentangle. Be open. Be ready. Don’t rush to entanglement because it feels familiar.

I could so easily get geared up for the next big thing. A project, a perceived responsibility new 'big' ideas. Don’t. Not now. Maybe not ever again.